Well everyday brings something new as my mother always tells me. Yet everyday I am surprised by the events of my day. Take Wednesday for example. Usually I am at the ABATE safety meeting greeting my friends and supporters, but last night I decided to take a little me time and read some of the twilight series. OK. I know that it may sound bad to have get your reading selection from the "teen age" section of Books-a-Million, but I have really grown to enjoy the series. I love it actually. Mostly because it is a very good love story. Complete fiction of course. Love is many things and I think the author tries to cover those facets, but at the end of the day I still had to walk to the "teen" section to purchase it. I suppose I am too bitter or cynical to believe in real love stories these days. Ah but that's another blog. This particular blog is about surprises.
Last semester my infinitely wise professor (who changed my life whether she knows it or not) had us write journal assignments to help expand our own feelings on topics. Thank goodness it wasn't a paper, the journals had no wrong answers. I have always been told that papers are supposed to help you think and go beyond the topic. Never in my life have I benefited more than from those journal assignments. At any rate, we talked about developing and in one such entry about what people would say about me when I passed, it got my attention. There are tons of people that I have become estranged with. People that 2 years ago I would have bet the farm that we would still be friends here and now. I began to examine those lost relationships for an answer, and it seemed in almost everyone that I felt responsible for the break. Immediately I started trying to bridge the gap. Calling people who I knew were going to be mad at me, because I had been mad at them. In the 3 months since my experiment, very few have called back, but yesterday 2 in one day. I was very pleased to be speaking with both of them. Very pleased indeed and I made it a point to apologize for whatever childish thing that I did. Both acted unaware of any offense that I might have laid to them. Curious though, if there really wasn't anyone to blame, for a technical fouling in friendship what happened then? People either grow together or apart, sometimes they do both I suppose. Talking to them was like fresh air. I laughed til my face hurt yesterday. Made me want to do more to reach out to other friends. I am tyring. Sometimes people are just lousy and lazy when it comes to communicating. Neither of my friends were mad at the lack of communication. Me, I was just grateful to hear about things in their lives. Everybody is looking for a happy ending. Well I am off to play quizzo with some friends, and tomorrow call some more friends. Life is good. Cedar is well she is with my neighbor. Cedar is continuing to grow at an alarming rate. I love it. She is my big guard dog. As punishment for the teen stuff, I am forcing myself to read bronte. Ack. Hmm the saga continues will be here tomorrow.. I hope..
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Summertime in the LBC...
I know that it has been since June I wrote a blog. I know this because there is a calendar on this pesky blog thing that tells me so. To defend myself I was busy with school, work, and campaigning. I enjoyed all three so much that I shall continue them into the fall. As if I had choice! LOL! To many peoples blogs have what we in the blogging "biz" call "points". A reason if you will (and you will) for writing a blog. Well I have two today and I am going to split the up into a series of blogs called "Hmmm". I haven't decided if there will be "Hmmm 2" or just "the Hmmm saga continues". Either way it will delight you with great insight into my mind. LOL! OR just make you stop reading this blog all together. I know that all four of you would be devastated. Guess I should skip off to the point of my blog now. Oh by the way I have completely given up on punctuation, I am taking another English this semester, hope it improves.
Hmmm the intro:
Let's start with insight. Before running for office I used to blog quite frequently on my Myspace page, I even had 12 registered readers, that's right. And yes most of them were family. When I threw my hat into the ring for office one of my campaign friends told me to destroy those blogs immediately, so I did. I started deleting them not thinking to save a few, and then I realized I could not throw them away. I had to keep them, these were my ideas, my thoughts, this was where my head was 3 years ago until 6 month ago. I saved them. Now to be honest I have been running a little ragged lately. Thank goodness for the break in school but I have been downtrodden lately by the campaign, almost to the point that I don't really know what day it is just the things I have to accomplish. Yesterday I was at home outlining a book that I am going to compose (Oh Mrs. Bowers I have been meaning to email you about this) about strong southern women. "Confessions of a Steel Magnolia, and all her friends", hope the title isn't already take. I just googled it, looks like it's still available, which is why I have to get on the ball. It will be mostly a compilation of essays from other southern women from ages 12-91, I have selected 26 authors including myself and my mother. I am digressing from the point as usual.. the point here is I was reading through some of the blogs I had saved for some ideas into the things that I wanted to address in my awesome book (on shelves 12-22). I was scanning and reading looking at the humor of the things I said, my randomness is astounding when I came across something I wrote and it made me cry just a little bit. There in the blue background and black font was this " Life is amazing and beautiful. Things will never be as great as they are right now. Whatever you are going through it will pass, I promise. Be strong." I teared up just now retyping it. A reminder to myself, even though I wrote that blog for a friend years ago, that life is beautiful and amazing. We will never be here again. The frailness of these moments is that they are fleeting. I know that I discuss a lot about time, but this was to be about healing. I know that when I am down I often seek sources outside myself, like books, magazines, knitting anything it seems to escape my own thoughts when dealing with a problem. Those words motivated me in a new way. Motivated me to trust myself, and to continue my belief that God is watching over us all. They may have been typed by me, but I know that God put them in my heart to prepare for down times. As I look around my life right now I know again that God has put all this before me, for me. Placed these wonderful people around me because he knew that I would need them and that they would help me. Faith and insight. Amazing terms when you think about it. To think that my eyes have seen things through my own words. Faith.
During the night the mystery was revealed to Daniel in a vision. Then Daniel praised the God of heaven and said: "Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever; wisdom and power are his. He changes times and seasons; he sets up kings and deposes them. He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to the discerning. He reveals deep and hidden things; he knows what lies in darkness, and light dwells with him. I thank and praise you, O God of my fathers: You have given me wisdom and power, you have made known to me what we asked of you, you have made known to us the dream of the king."
Daniel 2:19-23
Everyone meet Madelyn my beautiful neice. What a happy baby! Wouldn't you be if you looked like me just a little bit?
Hmmm the intro:
Let's start with insight. Before running for office I used to blog quite frequently on my Myspace page, I even had 12 registered readers, that's right. And yes most of them were family. When I threw my hat into the ring for office one of my campaign friends told me to destroy those blogs immediately, so I did. I started deleting them not thinking to save a few, and then I realized I could not throw them away. I had to keep them, these were my ideas, my thoughts, this was where my head was 3 years ago until 6 month ago. I saved them. Now to be honest I have been running a little ragged lately. Thank goodness for the break in school but I have been downtrodden lately by the campaign, almost to the point that I don't really know what day it is just the things I have to accomplish. Yesterday I was at home outlining a book that I am going to compose (Oh Mrs. Bowers I have been meaning to email you about this) about strong southern women. "Confessions of a Steel Magnolia, and all her friends", hope the title isn't already take. I just googled it, looks like it's still available, which is why I have to get on the ball. It will be mostly a compilation of essays from other southern women from ages 12-91, I have selected 26 authors including myself and my mother. I am digressing from the point as usual.. the point here is I was reading through some of the blogs I had saved for some ideas into the things that I wanted to address in my awesome book (on shelves 12-22). I was scanning and reading looking at the humor of the things I said, my randomness is astounding when I came across something I wrote and it made me cry just a little bit. There in the blue background and black font was this " Life is amazing and beautiful. Things will never be as great as they are right now. Whatever you are going through it will pass, I promise. Be strong." I teared up just now retyping it. A reminder to myself, even though I wrote that blog for a friend years ago, that life is beautiful and amazing. We will never be here again. The frailness of these moments is that they are fleeting. I know that I discuss a lot about time, but this was to be about healing. I know that when I am down I often seek sources outside myself, like books, magazines, knitting anything it seems to escape my own thoughts when dealing with a problem. Those words motivated me in a new way. Motivated me to trust myself, and to continue my belief that God is watching over us all. They may have been typed by me, but I know that God put them in my heart to prepare for down times. As I look around my life right now I know again that God has put all this before me, for me. Placed these wonderful people around me because he knew that I would need them and that they would help me. Faith and insight. Amazing terms when you think about it. To think that my eyes have seen things through my own words. Faith.
During the night the mystery was revealed to Daniel in a vision. Then Daniel praised the God of heaven and said: "Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever; wisdom and power are his. He changes times and seasons; he sets up kings and deposes them. He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to the discerning. He reveals deep and hidden things; he knows what lies in darkness, and light dwells with him. I thank and praise you, O God of my fathers: You have given me wisdom and power, you have made known to me what we asked of you, you have made known to us the dream of the king."
Daniel 2:19-23
Everyone meet Madelyn my beautiful neice. What a happy baby! Wouldn't you be if you looked like me just a little bit?
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